grossness

i'm bleeding alot less, but the volume seems to be the same. just um, mucus. ewwwww. i figure i'm either healing up, or running out of blood. either seems to be possible. i'm still coming back from the anemia -- dr. G told me to double the amount of iron i'm taking. but no more procrit injections, yaaay! i have this rotten cold that i think i picked up in nyc, i felt great sun and wed and progressively felt crappier until i slept from friday night almost straight thru monday morning. still felt like crap on monday, but i'm feeling better now. my nose is all sore from sneezing and i'm coughing gunk out of my lungs, but i can sit still and stay awake now. unlike monday, where i passed out cold on the couch as soon as i was done with work.

my muscles ache and i get tired easy, but i can deal. getting a little nauseous today. got this weird anxious feeling when i tried to do a little mall shopping after work. probably just the usual anxiety of not wanting to embarrass myself in public. i'm bleeding less, but i seem to have less er, control let's say. it's like back when this first started, constant needing the restroom - never knowing what was on the way. i worked as a cashier in a grocery store, on my feet for 6-8 hrs a shift, only allowed 1 10 min break every 4 hrs, which my manager decided when i could take. it wasn't a bad gig at all, but i'm glad we got to wear dark pants. i had more close-calls and almost accidents back then, before i was diagnosed. i just thought i ate bad sushi or it was just ibs or something. damn, that was 5 years ago already. feels like yesterday.