headache

i spend today in a dark room, trying to keep my head from exploding. Dr. Google is no help.

wotd: tired

i hate waking up tired. i am so wiped out today. i was tempted to stay home, but i'm glad i came in. my colleague is home sick today. if it weren't january, i may have stayed home, but i don't want to run out of vacation days before the end of the year. and i'm just tired, everything else is pretty ok *knocks on wood*

it just sucks that even when i try to take it easy, i still end up tired. and being tired just makes everything that much harder. which makes me cranky. i need a nap!

wotd: relaxing

hung out with hubs and friend from college most of the day. got some knitting done. had a delicious breakfast of bagel with lox (mmmmmm so good). when my friend hit the road, i snuggled in the bed to watch the playoffs, and took a nice nap. woke up to see the awesome end to the cards/packers game (though i really wanted green bay to win, that was a nice game). hubs made yummy dinner. did some more knitting. went back to bed. yup, a perfectly relaxing lazy sunday. i need more of those :)

wotd: reunion

got together with a bunch of folks i used to be on the newspaper with in college. good times. i forgot how funny these people were. i have a tendency to turn beet red, so this was a game back in the day to see who could make me blush the most. lots of giggling ensued. i hope we get together and do it again, and don't wait 10 years.

another bad day :(

gotta email dr. I, woke up to another bad day. but i got my heating pad and it's friday so hopefully it'll be an easy one. yesterday i had a pretty good day. i think i'll need to hold steady at 30 mg pred for another week -- i'm afraid 25 will push me out of fake remission. i'm eager to get off the dang steriods, but i know the 6mp probably isn't working yet. patience, grasshopper.

wotd: paperwork

just got done filing away all my adp fsa claim forms for 2009, just in time to start my forms for 2010! adp hates trees -- there are so many forms! and i can't send them via email, i have to print them out and fax them over. how silly! i love when they request receipts though -- pretty much, only my walgreens charges go through without them asking for a substantiation form. but every doctor's office and hospital visit needs a form. like what the heck else am i purchasing at "Somerset Medical Center" for $250 except my hospital deductible? or "Mount Sinai Hospital" for $20? at least it's easy for me to fill out the form online, print it, and walk over to our fax machine to send it out. how do folks without laid back office jobs do it? kinkos? well, at least ADP will be able to keep people in jobs, what with all the paper coming in. it's more likely just faxing over to a robot or OCR scanner, but i'd like to imagine that there are humans involved somewhere. otherwise, it's just computers making more work for other computers.

word of the morning: agony

omg, i was so tempted to stay home today. the pain is excruciating. i had a couple good days in a row, and didn't need my heating pad at work, but today is a two heating pad day. i wish i had two heating pads. i'll be switching between my crampy sad tummy and my achey colon. it's like it's mocking me -- i just got done telling the doc on monday that i felt 20% better than last month. now i'm having a craptacular day. i already had to run down the hall once today, and i just got here! bah.

i just wish there were something i could take to make the spasms stop, but not knock me all the way out like prescription painkillers do. i took some tylenol, but i don't expect it to do anything. the tylenol was for the headache i woke up with. so far, all it's done is chase the headache from the left side of my head to the right side of my head.

it's frustrating, the ups and downs, but at least it was quiet yesterday and i was able to make it down for my bro in law's birthday dinner.